Your book is available for sale in Kindle Store!

11 Replies

That’s the email you get when your Kindle pre-order goes live. It happens at midnight, local time, all around the globe, at a different time in every market in which your book is being sold. It’s four o’clock right now where I live. This one was for the UK.

My book has been available in Australia for roughly ten hours. It will hit here in five or in eight – I don’t know what time zone Amazon uses in figuring twelve o’clock in the United States.

Only five to eight hours. I confess I’m not ready – not close to ready. Not only because I still have guest blog posts to write, not only because I have yet to make trailers or even my tweets, not only because I haven’t yet chosen what sites I am going to use for promotion. I’m simply not ready to know.

I’m not ready to know whether my book’s going to sell. I’m not ready to learn whether the months of pre-release preparation will have been worth it or a complete waste of my time; I’m not ready to see my book flop, flounder, or fail, or what is most likely, get lost in the shuffle of millions of others that no one will find.

It’s a great book, if you don’t mind my saying. Although, as always, there will probably be some who won’t like it, I expect, in general, that it will be well-read, well-received, and well-reviewed. That is, if anyone finds it, if anyone buys it, if it gets any reviews.

There’s a hollow in the pit of my stomach that visits me rarely; I have few occasions in my life that prompt this response that most people call nerves. My body is tired and my brain is exhausted but there’s still so much to do, so much to prepare, so much to research, so much to write.

I wish that so much of my future wasn’t dependent upon this. I wish that I could write books and not have to sell them; I wish more than anything not to have to rely upon selling them. I wish I were sitting on the beach in Oxnard and that it was warm and that there was sun and that I was writing a book and not trying to sell one.

If wishes were horses…

… I’d grab hold of the nearest stallion and let him run me all the way to Utah.

This ought to be fun, I think, not a day filled with dread, but it’s still better, still better than what tomorrow may bring, or the day after that, or the following week, or the month after next. Still better than knowing what I don’t want to know, still better than facing the fact that countless authors have faced in the opening moments of their potential careers – that it makes no difference if your work is good, if no one ever reads it.

But I’ve still got my rooftop: I’ve still got my greenhouse; I’ve still got my sunshine. And if I still have far too many blog posts to write, that’s all right, too, because at least I am writing. It feels good to be writing. Not good enough to de-tangle my nerves or de-jiggle my jitters or fill the hole in my heart where there ought not to be one. But close. Close enough to keep trying.

11 thoughts on “Your book is available for sale in Kindle Store!”

  2. jan

    Don’t despair if things don’t happen right away – I have heard many, many stories about books that take a while to find their audiences. Your pre-release effort has been amazing – at least the couple of months I’ve been following your blog! I’m sure your story will resonate with many many people! jan

    Liked by 1 person

    Reply ↓
  3. Norah

    I thought I had replied to this post when I first saw it. I must have been too excited because I had already received the email and checked my Kindle, and there was your book sitting there waiting to be read. Woohoo! I am still reading Geoff’s ‘Dead Flies’, and as soon as I’ve finished it, I’ll be reading yours, unless the audiobook is out first! Either way, i’m sure I’ll agree with you that it’s a great book! I wish you every success with it, and I agree entirely – I’d rather be writing than marketing! Best wishes. :)

    Liked by 1 person

    Reply ↓
  4. TanGental

    I have them! Eek! Excited. I will admit to storing them for a long haul flight to NZ I’m making in 2 weeks with reviews to follow. You have so many ideas about publicity that I don’t register so if there’s anything I can do, squeal! You aren’t alone not that that makes it any better. Very thoughtful post.

    Like

    Reply ↓
  5. thewriteedge

    I understand, Lori. I’m going to be in the same position myself in a few weeks, and I think you’re describing exactly how I’m going to feel. Good to know I’m not the only one. Thanks for an awesome post!

    Liked by 1 person

    Reply ↓

Leave a comment